Friday, December 17, 02.09

Today, i really felt bad. So i wrote something down, went to the shop to get some more beer, (i wanted to forget about everything), then, walking back, i changed my mind. I almost ran home, to say something else, hide how i felt.
I don't know what happened next, somehow, i got to bed, fell asleep.
When i woke up, checked my email, read roborwisdom, i saw the old entry: i feel miserable, like i shouldn't exist. sorry.

I'll probably cheer up, i always do. Sometimes i wish i could put more distance between me and presents, but when i feel good, its a good thing i don't. So this is the other side of the coin. The days i wonder why i live, the days i really want to end it all.
I know i should fight it, be brave, whatever.

But right now, i don't want to, so i just get back to bed and try to fall asleep, forget about everything.

I'll be alright though ( i hope).