Today, i really felt bad. So i wrote something down, went to the shop to get some more beer, (i wanted to forget about everything), then, walking back, i changed my mind. I almost ran home, to say something else, hide how i felt.
I'll probably cheer up, i always do. Sometimes i wish i could put more distance between me and presents, but when i feel good, its a good thing i don't. So this is the other side of the coin. The days i wonder why i live, the days i really want to end it all.
But right now, i don't want to, so i just get back to bed and try to fall asleep, forget about everything.
I'll be alright though ( i hope).